sometimes, when i have a feeling i will see someone at a certain time or a certain place or a certain day, i unconsciously scan the place around for them. i dunno why. not that i need anything from them, or that i’d do any special effort to say “hi” [and tell them, "hey btw i just had a feeling i'd see you today, and look!" <---weeeeird]…but many times…(or all those times?..)
i did see them. like someone earlier this morning. of all the places in Bacolod City to be, of all the times, while exiting McDonalds at 5 am in the morning, and glancing towards the door (one last time? or just by chance?), there i saw him, that new tattoo he got on his forearm unmistakable, coz something about his dozy facial expression and slumped position (sleepy? tipsy? both?) made me doubt i was seeing who i thought i was seeing, and i unknowingly glanced over to said forearm (bongga! daw sa passport…"any special markings"?) rather than stare [and say "hi"...i'm weird that way. sometimes i don't say hi to people, esp if it's not easy. like for example, being halfway out the door is not easy and i am not good at feigning surprise (feigning is the word, coz somehow i knew i'd see him...remember? o_O') and starting small talk. uhhhhhr awkward moment 101 esp since said person in female company. exit stage right. LOL ^^'].
smiled to myself on the way out, coz that "feeling" or impression was right. a few steps later, (after this random guy on the street said hi and i subtly moved a few meters into the other direction), i felt freaked out a bit. hahaha. before it was family, close friends, and people i know from Church.
but then again, something about him sometimes just makes me sad. it's just the mere fact that when i see people who i know can be so much more, but they're not. haay.
he acts and looks a man full grown
but i know he's vulnerable inside
i really wish that i could save him
the child he tries to hide
ex boyfriend:
he acts as if he knows everything
but he's questioning inside
i wish that i could save him
but i can't save him from his pride
